1. |
Mirage
02:20
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Shadows stand in place of day
Cold and damp where you lay
So wrap your arms around your ghosts
Pretending that they'll keep you warm
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2. |
Shed
03:49
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Stretch the clocks to set a bomb
Head to head with this dead aplomb
Reddened are these hands of mine
Fed up with these broken lines
Got to get it going before it stays
Mark my words today'll be the day
I'll say
What a fine day to change
I can't keep on living life this way
Well it feels somewhat strange
Feels something's bout to change
Stumbling, the morning light
Slips right past the sharp air of night
East to West, the Sun and the Moon
Release me from these exit wounds
Got to keep on going for the gray
So I can live to see the coming day
I'll say
What a fine day to change
I can't keep on living life this way
And it feels somewhat strange
To say that I could take this all away
But you keep it all to yourself
No one's gonna be there for your health
Can't keep clinging onto this shell
Before I'm dead I'll shed off this
Every bit of hell
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3. |
Bound
03:58
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Buried my head under the sand
Never ceased the rolling tide
So I buried my head in the palms of my hands
Rubbed the dirt right in my eyes
You carry me in and out on a limb
Cause you hate to see me fall behind
I'll say carry me when I'm healthy again
I'll hold my tongue til I've made up my mind
Trapped by fate in a stalemate
You're giving your all but you can't escape
Pray to God so he'll set it straight
At least you'll smile at the golden gates
Blessed by burdens to demonstrate
Your will to live and regenerate
But you're growing thin
Flitting around like a butterfly
Then like a bee with a one track mind
I follow your stride as I'm sleep deprived
Cause I don't want to leave your side
Cause there's something I realized
You always gave me all of your time
How could I have been so blind
A name that's simply meant to bind
Bound by name to a losing game
Can't decide where to hide your shame
In the arms of the enemy
Or in my arms til the end of me
I locked my door so you hesitate
To try again so you meditate
But you've hit another wall
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4. |
Seven
03:59
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Give me seven days
We may just see the sun
But I didn't know what else to say
Cause I'd seen the wilting had already begun
And didn't I neglect to pull ahead
I'd always found myself to drag along
And didn't I forget to hold your head
When I promised you that I'd stay strong
Here I am again
Lying in my den
Give me seven days
Before I let you go
Will I clip these beautiful binds
So you can go find a better garden
But what if I can't stop the bleeding
I fear our hearts may harden
Give me seven days
Would we even survive
And if the clouds don't clear away
How long will we thrive
So I've made up my mind
Seven's just a waste of time
It'd just add up to a week of pretty lies
So I'm cutting off my ties
I'm cutting off my ties
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5. |
Broken
03:24
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You've come undone
Give one, take none
You can't run broken
Or you'll become the poison
So hold on
Look ahead
Even if it's just another wall
Don't isolate yourself
Instead, consolidate
Let your fences fall
Come again
You said you'd bend backward
Dive into the deep end
But the world isn't just
Our hearts we'll send
Only to find that dust
Will thrive where we began
So hold on
Check your head
You've been here before
Making the same amends
Maybe it's time you let this go
Besides you'll find it hard to start on a broken leg
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6. |
Sincerely
04:09
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Thought I knew what I was doing
Thought I was shielding you from the world
As well as from myself
Took the liberty of welcoming peripety
Despite what you said to me
About this fragile thing that beats itself up
So very often
I could blame it on
Naivety, apathy, necessity or self-pity
But I'm bleeding any way
Fold my cards now
Sold my soul down to Animus so long ago
For a broken noose and now I'm broke
I know it seems so useless now but
There are still some bridges left unburned
Would you humor me and meet me at the ledge
Dear Anima,
I've made a fool out of you
For reasons I can't clarify
I'm not gonna lie, I lied to you
Gave you hope that I'd come round
Instead I left and let you drown
Don't you see that empathy's so over me
I wanna be a better man but
It's tougher to risk suffering than to go out with
Half a heart bleeding through my sleeve
But I guess I could start
I just need to breathe
Sweet little bird
Swept me off my feet
To ethereal clouds I vowed to keep discreet
And I did, I did
But I did my little bid adieu
Before you knew that what I do best
Is fly right away
Don't question if it was real
You know it was
But I need some time to find myself because
I'm lost in a haze of my low self-opinion
Yeah I know it's a crutch
But I'll find my way
Palomita,
I apologize for breaking you
And leaving you to fend for yourself
I wish happiness and health to you
Maybe I should keep some for myself
I'm still much too young and too naive to know what I really need
So just go
Don't wait on me
Do what you've got to do to get on
Go on
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7. |
Grown
03:48
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Wet the clay lest you turn to stone
Yet every day it doesn't seem you've grown
Shoved away by your own control
Love everyone but your own damn soul
But you're still here
Despite all your fears
You make it hard for your heart to say
What it wants you to hear
So which road will you take
Knowing full-well that the stakes are
Higher than anticipated
Stop running in place
Bit your tongue at the sound of a gun
Surrendered as soon as you started to run
Spit at the ground and curse at the sun
Look around
You're really the only one
But it's all right
You can't always fight
These wretched demons
Fastened tightly to your sides
Don't take it lightly but
Take it in stride
After all, your wounds will heal in due time
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8. |
Languishing
01:26
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(45.1236487, -93.2765419)
This is where I had planned to end my life during 2014. I was lucky to be given the opportunity to move 1000 miles away to live with other family members and escape the abuse I had been experiencing for my entire adolescence. If not, I don't know that I would still be alive today. Thank you for listening.
If you're struggling with suicidal thoughts, I have this to say: I know that it seems like you are doomed to have a terrible future, but the reality is that no matter what your struggles are, there are countless opportunities to find peace if you continue to live. When we say that we don't want to live any more, what we really want is not to die, but to live peaceful lives. It's hard to survive, but small things can help. Spend time with loved ones, meet new people, be compassionate to yourself, try new things, be close to nature, learn about decolonization. All of these things help. You will experience ups and downs but you will learn how to balance the pain and the joy in your life, the older you get.
I named this album after a written passage that helped me find peace during my deep depression:
"Trying and giving up go hand in hand. But it’s trying that deserves the attention of our will. Giving up is just breathing out. Breathing in is the one we need to remember to do. Breathing out naturally follows. The important thing is just to keep breathing. To try and then just go through all that happens, including not trying. And so we hold our breath sometimes. These things aren’t problems. They are just living. As long as the message you send yourself is that it is important to you to be guided by the creative force inside you, in the long run you are on the same path as the sun. Of course you’ll seem to go up and down, and be in darkness and light. That’s life. The reality of it is that you are a shining star circling through space all the time. So by making your own circular actions (doing some creative or educational activity consistently) you will naturally become more of what you really are. And you are that already. It’s just a game to learn to be it more completely amidst environment, and the illusions of constant change and separateness. One entirety of everything is all there is, ever was, and ever will be."
- John Frusciante
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9. |
Lucid
02:33
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There's a word for every time I
Project my fears onto everyone's face
It's cynicism
And like a shadow it tempts me to
Brandish all my instincts
I fight or fly away
Guess we're all isolated in some way
Look back into the mirror and ask
Where did we go astray
In a mass of terra cotta bodies
Vacant gazes posed along these
Caves of dancing shadows
Led away from the sun's direction
Reflect on these poisonous behaviors
Save yourself another isolated day
Dreaming of a weeping siren
Symbolizing Anima's resentment for defeated silence
Beneath me lies a frightened violence
Reincarnate son of tyrants
Born into a line of serpents
Shedding off their skins but
Never surrendering themselves to metamorphosis
Instead, we feed our cerberuses and orthruses and hope for resurrection
Reflect on these poisonous behaviors
Save your self-pity for another day
Save yourself
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10. |
Sailing
04:41
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I watched them sailing on separate shores
Caught in the breaking waves under our oars
I watched them drowning in currents so low
Dove in to find me swept in the undertow
Way down
Way down
Way down I feel alone
Way down
Way down
Way down
Way down
Way down I feel at home
Awake from the nightmare
The darkness has faded
Now there's light there
It's so far away
I'm keeping my pace
I know there's a time and a place
For fighting and disrepair
But it's so hard laying still
I got so much time to kill
It's drifting away...
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